I was talking way back when about how it often felt like life wasn't really happening all the time, like I spent a lot of time sort of waiting for a bus that never (or seldom) came. I realized that life doesn't always unfold the way you envision it, and that I had developed a tendency to negate the real events of my life by considering them "not the real thing", or not the Big Things I Had Planned, therefore trivial exercises -- not real life. The result of such negation of l